Process of Writing a Book?!..

Hey guys!!

So I am going to be posting way more content because I want to write a book. I am interested in writing a few books. I love writing and talking, I just started rediscovering the things I used to thoroughly enjoy.

Back story!

Basically, as you all know,  I suffered from very bad depression. My depression set in after years of disappointments. I went through a lot in my life and found myself not having or wanting to do things to get out of my funk. Then after a while I got comfortable and found myself struggling to not have these negative thoughts. I was negative when it came to my life but positive about everyone else's.  It was crazy! How do you go from being this happy person who expressed themselves freely to wanting to die? I have a small bad habit that I am trying to fix, which is me always feeling like I am bothering people. So I decided last year to do all the things I used to do and kind of rekindle the spark. Lets just say I am pleasantly pleased by it.

Fast Forward!

Now here I am rearing 25 years of age in March, Yikes getting old! and I am nowhere near where I thought I would be. Normally that would make me sad but it hasn't. I am going to get to where I need to be because I have not only set forth motion but I am actually happy. I am happy and not complacent. Complacency makes you think life passes you by in my opinion. I will be uploading my videos to my blog site so you can take this journey with me!

But I am in the process of writing book and whatever I learn I will share for those aspiring for the same thing.

The Discussion || Depression

Hey there!

So I made a video talking about Depression and not only my struggle with it but how it plagues us. Yes us! There are so many different perspectives to depression. you have the person going through it, the person who wants to help but doesn't know how, the person who battles and doesn't know how to help someone else and the variations continue. The video delves into a different perspective of helping and ways to seek help and to just get the conversation started. Let me know what you think!

                                                         The Discussion || Depression
                                                                            Part 1

Part 2

Here are some Links to help you through whatever you are going through!:
Depression: http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/depression/index.shtml
Suicide Hotline: 1 (800) 273-8255
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Hours: 24 hours, 7 days a week
Languages: English, Spanish
Website: www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
There are also different suicide assistant lines in every state just google " suicide hotline (and wherever you live)

Depression in Children: http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/depression-children

Depression in Teens:
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/depression/teen-depression-signs-help.htm

Depression in Adults:
http://www.uptodate.com/contents/depression-in-adults-beyond-the-basics

Depression in the Elderly:
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/depression/depression-in-older-adults-and-the-elderly.htm

Depression in Christians:
http://www.focusonthefamily.com/lifechallenges/emotional-health/depression/depression-in-the-christian-family

Confidence

I have been thinking about this word a lot lately. I have no idea exactly why i just know that I believe in this word and I portray in my day to day life this word. Thing is I was never as confident as I have been now. But before we get to me lets see the definition of the word.

con·fi·dence

   [kon-fi-duhns]  Show IPA

noun

1.

full trust; belief in the powers, trustworthiness, or reliabilityof a person or thing: We have every confidence in their abilityto succeed.

2.

belief in oneself and one's powers or abilities; self-confidence; self-reliance; assurance: His lack of confidencedefeated him.

3.

certitude; assurance: He described the situation with suchconfidence that the audience believed him completely.

4.

a confidential communication: to exchange confidences.

5.

(especially in European politics) the wish to retain anincumbent government in office, as shown by a vote in aparticular issue: a vote of confidence.

There are many meanings for this word but the one many like to think of first would have to be 1 & 2. "So if we all know what it is and we all know the meaning why don't we have it?" A majority of time we don't have confidence because things have made us second guess ourselves in the past. Or we may have even believed in ourselves at a point but were put down by someone we thought so highly of that we no longer have that vote of confidence. To top it off we live in a society of many contradictions and standards and falsely-hood of how we should be. We encourage people to embrace themselves to our standards then rush to stifle it and that stops their growth into being confident. How can you be confident if you have been stifled in a sense of what it entails? 

But back to my confidence, how I found it again, where I think it went ( lol ) and what it is I did to be more of it. Now I have always been a person who is strong willed and people confused that with confidence, I was just hard-headed. I was always trying to prove people wrong instead of proving to myself that I am more then just what anyone else thinks of me. Regardless if I get one view on this blog or 40 I don't quite care cause I put my best foot forward and did something I would never do and that is speak. I speak a lot and have a lot to say but I would never speak on my feelings or speak on things that impact me. I would get consumed with other people's lives that i wouldn't have a true life of my own and then it hit me like a ton of bricks after talking to countless friends, strangers, associates of what they should do that I need to do it myself. Being a mother helped me with that. I stopped being worried about the Jones' and started being worried about Vastia. I needed to think of me and who I am as an individual. I am proud to say that I am a proud mom, a proud student, a proud employee, a proud friend, a proud daughter, a proud person because of the confidence I found within myself. I underestimated the powers of myself something I tell everyone not to do and I started to just become confident in things I do and just jump into things I like without fear of what others think or how people will perceive things or even how my friends will view things. Love yourself, trust yourself, think things through. 

I am confident because of I LOVE WHO I AM!

Thank you for reading and just enjoy this journey that I am going to take you on cause it shall be interesting lol..