Debt Free Mindset!

I have been going crazy because I fell off my journey of paying off my school loans and credit cards ( YIKES!!! ) Thankfully I am not missing payments or anything but unfortunately I found myself lost along the way. So I decided that I wanted to make goals and achieve them. Like seriously achieve them.. Not just say I will and don't. Currently I am not working and I am a full time student and mother who is on the verge of making something of myself. Something major as I am known for. I make things happen lol as everyone likes to point out. I have been pondering on many ways to fix things and I came up with the conclusion.... STOP THINKING ABOUT IT AND DO IT!!!!

I know, I know we say this all the time and many of us should really practice what we preach but c'mon now it's hard.. *buzzer* wrong. It's not hard, we as people have a tendency to make things more difficult then need be. So when do you start to fix things you may ask, umm how about now.. Now is the time to fix things, now is the time to fully sit here and take life and everything by force. If not now then when?

I came up with soooo many excuses for myself " I need these shoes. I want that purse. I need that 3rd humidifier.." The things I would buy and the people I wasted money on.. Money that I could have saved. Money that I could have invested in the person who was working hard to make it. Money that I no longer have because of my all too willingness to help others before I help myself.

I want to enjoy my life not stress about it and the only way to do that is to be smart about money. I came up with plans to clear my debt within 2.5 years... My credit cards that is.. My school Loans that's a different ball game.. But I will do it. I have taken the steps I needed to take today.


This journey will be a long one but enjoy the ride I take you on and see my decline in debt and my growth in knowledge..

Confidence

I have been thinking about this word a lot lately. I have no idea exactly why i just know that I believe in this word and I portray in my day to day life this word. Thing is I was never as confident as I have been now. But before we get to me lets see the definition of the word.

con·fi·dence

   [kon-fi-duhns]  Show IPA

noun

1.

full trust; belief in the powers, trustworthiness, or reliabilityof a person or thing: We have every confidence in their abilityto succeed.

2.

belief in oneself and one's powers or abilities; self-confidence; self-reliance; assurance: His lack of confidencedefeated him.

3.

certitude; assurance: He described the situation with suchconfidence that the audience believed him completely.

4.

a confidential communication: to exchange confidences.

5.

(especially in European politics) the wish to retain anincumbent government in office, as shown by a vote in aparticular issue: a vote of confidence.

There are many meanings for this word but the one many like to think of first would have to be 1 & 2. "So if we all know what it is and we all know the meaning why don't we have it?" A majority of time we don't have confidence because things have made us second guess ourselves in the past. Or we may have even believed in ourselves at a point but were put down by someone we thought so highly of that we no longer have that vote of confidence. To top it off we live in a society of many contradictions and standards and falsely-hood of how we should be. We encourage people to embrace themselves to our standards then rush to stifle it and that stops their growth into being confident. How can you be confident if you have been stifled in a sense of what it entails? 

But back to my confidence, how I found it again, where I think it went ( lol ) and what it is I did to be more of it. Now I have always been a person who is strong willed and people confused that with confidence, I was just hard-headed. I was always trying to prove people wrong instead of proving to myself that I am more then just what anyone else thinks of me. Regardless if I get one view on this blog or 40 I don't quite care cause I put my best foot forward and did something I would never do and that is speak. I speak a lot and have a lot to say but I would never speak on my feelings or speak on things that impact me. I would get consumed with other people's lives that i wouldn't have a true life of my own and then it hit me like a ton of bricks after talking to countless friends, strangers, associates of what they should do that I need to do it myself. Being a mother helped me with that. I stopped being worried about the Jones' and started being worried about Vastia. I needed to think of me and who I am as an individual. I am proud to say that I am a proud mom, a proud student, a proud employee, a proud friend, a proud daughter, a proud person because of the confidence I found within myself. I underestimated the powers of myself something I tell everyone not to do and I started to just become confident in things I do and just jump into things I like without fear of what others think or how people will perceive things or even how my friends will view things. Love yourself, trust yourself, think things through. 

I am confident because of I LOVE WHO I AM!

Thank you for reading and just enjoy this journey that I am going to take you on cause it shall be interesting lol..